Mum, moody, messy, manic. Retired musician and aspiring writer.
From dark, sordid, private journaling, this website became my greatest recovery asset for major depression and anxiety, and the eating disorder and self harm behaviours I used to mask them.
I imploded like a smashed egg, and from within I've found a fledgling bird, ready to spread its wings and fly.
I hope within these pages, you find a moment of connection, truth, revelation and understanding. This is my story. Perhaps it's yours too.
The Arc de Triomphe was within spitting distance of our hotel (we elected not to spit on it). Of all the iconic Parisienne landmarks, this was our favourite. It's enormous - towering in the center of the Place Charles de Gaulle, with 12 streets radiating out in all directions. We explored Paris on foot, meandering almost all 12 at one time or another.
Forty three days down. Nine to go. I am ready - but glad to have these last nine days to consolidate what I've learned, set up support at home, invent a new life for myself, and gain the confidence to know it's not only possible for me to recover - or even probable - but I have to believe I will recover.
Today I'm very sad. I guess it was inevitable. After 25 years of marriage I don't normally blink an eye when spending time apart from my significant other - but this is different. We've been apart a month and will now be apart another 2-4 weeks. Which in the big scheme of things will become a blip on the radar, but today we're surfing the blip.