When the burden of being a burden becomes so burdensome the burden can no longer be bourne, it's crunch time. Disappear into Wonderland with the big white rabbit, going permanently mad? Or just go - permanently? Or do what needs to be done and reach out? Clearly the latter is the healthier option.

Permanently Temporary

I live in a state of being permanently temporary. I guess we all do to some extent... But since ceasing paid employment at the end of 2017, my routine has been - to put it mildly - flexible. I like it this way. It's very bad for me.

Girl with the Eating Disorder

I identify really strongly as "the girl with the eating disorder". I need a better identity in order to move past this one... I get asked from time to time what to "do" to help or support me. I'm usually flummoxed by this question. I have no idea how to help myself - how can I provide information I don't know?!

How are you?

A coded question, that in some circumstances, is a call for help. When struggling with some variety of mental health problems, it's often reinforced by support circles of professionals, friends and family, that reaching out and talking - to real live people - is very important. That defusing the stress, catastrophising, urge to do something [...]

Fearing Hope

Hope seems like such a positive emotion. Something anyone would want to have and strive for. Something we'd all hope to have and to offer to others. Fear on the other hand - who would want to live with fear, anxiety and the heavy burden it drapes around your neck. There a times though, when [...]