I identify really strongly as "the girl with the eating disorder". I need a better identity in order to move past this one... I get asked from time to time what to "do" to help or support me. I'm usually flummoxed by this question. I have no idea how to help myself - how can I provide information I don't know?!
Monday afternoon I presented at the hospital for an overnight admission to have my gastric lap band removed. I wasn't thrilled but was coming to terms with it, and valiantly thinking of it as a turning point in recovery. Which may well be the case. Who knows?
In 2012, I became the very happy recipient of a a gastric lap band. In 2019, I'm having it removed. On Monday to be precise. I'm petrified.
Salty tears stream down my face, landing on the corners of my lips before dripping off my chin. The deep magenta flush glowing on my cheeks, a stark contrast to the enormous grey circles appearing beneath my reddened eyes.
When life falls apart, and everything shatters into a million pieces, and you're not the person you thought, and have no idea how to rebuild yourself, or what a rebuilt life will look like, it's impossible to picture a future. As the recovery process begins - be it through pharmacological, psychological, psychiatric or personal support [...]