The misty moors of the mind.
Stories of depression, anxiety, disordered eating, self-harm & suicidal ideation.
The reason I’m here at all – mental health advocacy.
It’s easy to have an opinion on something you’ve never experienced. You can sympathetically imagine what it’s like to experience childbirth, obesity, cancer, racial prejudice – but only lived experience truly gives you a window into the world. And even then it’s just your window in your world.
This blog began as an expansion of my very dark and sordid journaling, which began shortly after I entered a psychiatric clinic as an inpatient. So I couldn’t kill myself – just so we’re all on the same page here. After much soul searching, researching, denial, professional therapy, pharmaceutical support, failure, success, friendship, love, and the roller-coaster ride of recovery, I’m in a much safer place – ready to spread my wings and revisit the real world.
Contained within these virtual pages are my stories – old and new – of living with depression, anxiety, disordered eating, self-harm, suicidal ideation – and to some extent (completely self-diagnosed and by no means crippling…) OCD, PTSD, hypervigilance, and a whole pile of other acronyms I’ve now forgotten. Let’s just call it hypochondria. Oh – the one I don’t like. Codependency. I don’t want it to be true. And yet…
If you experience mental health issues – large or small – I hope my words offer some comfort, insight or support. Please know I am always willing to listen and have had many readers reach out over the years. If you have a question, ask.
If you are looking on behalf of someone you know and love, I hope my words offer a window into their world. And always remember this is purely my story. I have found tools that worked brilliantly. And others that were useless. Another person could have the exact opposite experience. Our job is to keep looking until we find the thing that eases the burden just a little. Then to keep looking a little more. If you’re someone’s support person, I hope you are the thing that is easing someone’s burden. Connections to the world around us – people, places, past, present, future – that’s what keeps us going.