Through all sorts of therapies and chats with the wickedly wise and wonderful people who support me during various times of crises, I’m always reminded that intense feelings pass. No … Continue reading Made it
Rarely discussed in polite conversation, self harm & suicide are an unfortunate reality for a huge number of people. These are my personal experiences of sinking to some very dark depths.
I’m struggling with a malaise of melancholy. Surrounded by blue skies and sunshine, all I see and feel are clouds. I know the clouds will lift, revealing bright days and … Continue reading Cloudy with a chance of sunshine
It needs to be said, I have not coped fantastically well the last week or two. While the array of stressors I am experiencing are neither extraordinary nor extreme, collectively … Continue reading Coming up for air
I’ve recently returned from a seven day, self-imposed, writing retreat for one. It was awesome. I stayed at a friend’s cottage by the beach for a week and wrote, wrote, … Continue reading Progress: not perfection
Day 43 Forty three days down. Nine to go. I am ready – but glad to have these last nine days to consolidate what I’ve learned, set up support at … Continue reading Week Seven
Day Eight Same old, same old. Neither better nor worse. I feel my depression has sunk pretty low and I spent a lot of today mapping out “exit” strategies. But … Continue reading Week Two
A friend of mine has encouraged me to share my private journals of inpatient. I hope it’s not triggering for anyone. It’s deeply personal. And I’ve made every effort to … Continue reading Week One
Cheerful little topic huh?! But something I believe needs to be discussed in the wider community from time to time. So here I am – casting my two cents worth … Continue reading Suicidality
I’m feeling a little sore, sad and sorry for myself. Sore, because I fell off a fit ball a few weeks back and undid all the good work from my … Continue reading Sad Sack of Sorry
I ran out of medication last week. Turns out this was a bit of an oversight on my behalf, and not the most fun way to spend my week. I … Continue reading Whoops!
I must be do something right. I’m feeling very uncomfortable. And I’ve been reassured again and again, that change is uncomfortable, so I guess this is change. Whether it’s short … Continue reading Discomfort
Apparently I’m a shame magnet. Not sure if I struggle with shame because I’m super sensitive to humiliation, or if I’m super sensitive to humiliation because I struggle with shame. … Continue reading Shame, Shame, Shame