Feeding Time

It’s easy to know when your body needs food – physical cues are given out. We all know what they are (even when some of use choose to ignore those cues), and we know drinking a glass of water doesn’t make them go away. So feeding physical hunger is easy. As my writing mentor said […]

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Inner Spirit

I recently had a beautiful reminder that no matter how unpredictable the path ahead may seem, I have come so very far from the place I began. It is natural and easy to look back to all that could have been different, and look ahead to all that is yet to be done. This sharing […]

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Relentless Positivity

I recently stumbled across a TED talk by Susan David, titled The Gift & Power of Emotional Courage. If you haven’t seen it, I recommend having a little peak. I’ve watched it three times now – and devoured the transcript. Perhaps to some it seems a well articulated and vaguely interesting talk about  something obvious. But […]

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Accountability

I don’t have anything interesting or noteworthy to say today, but in the interests of my ongoing recovery, I am making a public accountability statement. I ate more food than I was comfortable with today. I ate different food and at different times to my prescribed meal plan times. I feel uncomfortably full. Probably an […]

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Transformation

I created a 2018 vision board, and central to the board are two things – angel wings with Freedom written above them, and a quote I just adore. Transformation isn’t sweet and bright. It’s a dark and murky, painful pushing. An unraveling of the truths you’ve carried in your body. A practice in facing your own […]

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Step by step

Step by step I’m maintaining recovery. Little ups and downs, but I feel like I’ve turned a corner. One of those big kind of corners. In the ten days since last I posted, I’ve eaten all the meals on my menu plan. Flexibility has sometimes been an absolute necessity due to external situations. And I […]

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Transition Week

Day 52 I am home 🙂 It’s been a wild ride. My last two days at the clinic were focused on discussing healthy ways of managing my out of control anxiety issues. I had one day of leave cancelled altogether (Sunday) as I couldn’t be trusted not to harm myself. I didn’t even trust myself. […]

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Week Seven

Day 43 Forty three days down. Nine to go. I am ready – but glad to have these last nine days to consolidate what I’ve learned, set up support at home, invent a new life for myself, and gain the confidence to know it’s not only possible for me to recover – or even probable […]

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Week Six

Day 36 Hmm… What to write today? The easier things become at the clinic, and the more confidence I develop in my ability to recover – and stay recovered – the less interesting things I have to share. And it’s not because I only focus on the negative – I promise! It’s because life in […]

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Letters to me

Today’s psychology task – write two letters. One from my body to me. One from me to my body. Here goes: Dear Simone, Thank you for taking the opportunity to read this letter. I appreciate it is going to be confronting but unfortunately there are times when we need to hear a difficult truth – […]

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Week Five

Day 29 Today I’m very sad. I guess it was inevitable. After 25 years of marriage I don’t normally blink an eye when spending time apart from my significant other – but this is different. We’ve been apart a month and will now be apart another 2-4 weeks. Which in the big scheme of things […]

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The Land of Oz

One of our tasks in group therapy today was to “create three characters to live in your own ‘Land of Oz’. Give them each something to search for that YOU are searching for through your eating disorder (NOT related to weight). Give reasons why the Mighty Wizard would say that you already have what you […]

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