It occurs to me, I don’t have an About Me page. Initially I didn’t bother, because I figured, who really cares?! Then I realised that every time I visit someone else’s blog I like to visit they’re About Me page. So I have decided to write one. Here’s a brief summary of my life.
I spent 36 years of my life teaching and performing the flute, and in 2016 resigned from my musical world. I grieve for the loss of everything that I loved about it, and I know in my heart it was absolutely time. I was tired and ready to move on. It was a great decision. I miss my music enormously.
I’m married to a very devoted, loyal man, who has irritated the crap out of me for more than two decades, while still being my very safe place to fall. We complement each other very well. And when he realises he’s been an arsehole, he actually admits it and does something about it. I have the greatest admiration for his strength, intelligence, resilience, loyalty and honesty. Together we have brought into this world, three incredibly smart, sassy, funny, difficult and loving young men. We are intensely proud of them – even when they drive us to the brink of insanity.
I have had lifelong issues with mental health – namely depression, anxiety and disordered eating. However it wasn’t until I had a midlife crisis and fell apart, that I realised I had issues. Up until then I was an expert at numbing my emotions, wearing a happy mask, and just plain old ignoring all my problems. I’ve spent the past three years working on my issues – often spending more times going backwards than forwards – and I am now hopefully in a headspace where recovery is well and truly underway.
I have had two inpatient stays in psychiatric facilities – both of which have saved my life in one way or another.
My future focus is on continuing to write about mental health issues, redefining myself as a writer rather than a musician (I’m currently penning my memoir, and have a few other book ideas planned), and figuring out how to earn a bit of money to support our little family.