Accountability

I don’t have anything interesting or noteworthy to say today, but in the interests of my ongoing recovery, I am making a public accountability statement.

I ate more food than I was comfortable with today.

I ate different food and at different times to my prescribed meal plan times.

I feel uncomfortably full. Probably an 8 or 9 on the good old satiety scale.

I am struggling big time with eating disorder thoughts, wanting to compensate for this Sunday indulgence – either by purging tonight, or restricting tomorrow. And by wanting to punish myself with self harm for my weakness and stupidity.

However…

As I now consider myself to be a person “in” recovery, I will do none of those things. I will simply make this public announcement of my fallibility, have a glass of water with my normal evening medications, and put it all behind me. When I wake tomorrow, I will have my normal breakfast at the normal time and I will endeavour to have a normal day. Because that is what normal people do. They occasionally overeat and then they forget about it. Apparently…

 

One Reply to “Accountability”

  1. Be proud of yourself today, and for the decision you have made to stay on track tomorrow. Well done xxxx

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