I am entering into a phase of recovery (ie the beginning…) where I am doggedly determined to embark upon this road and make change. I am going to do it. Despite yesterday’s fuck-ups…
The dialogue in my head is usually critical and unkind, mean and hateful – you idiot, can’t believe you did that, who do you think you are, you are not good enough, stupid fat moron. I silently bully and belittle myself relentlessly – day in and day out.
I understand and respect I need to move away from negative thought processes. Affirmations are unnatural and all pollyanna-ish to me, which I find extremely distasteful. I can try and give it a go none-the-less.
I need to state up front I have been
cursed blessed with the attention span of a flea. So by necessity I require affirmations with a very small number of words! They must also be genuine or I won’t do them at all. I detest the idea of standing in front of a mirror and telling myself I look beautiful. I can’t do it. I get nauseous just thinking about it. I have a big problem with lying…
However, if I focus on the actual recovery road, and find positive pep-talk words, I think I might be able to make a little progress. I confess, I did indulge in a little bit of positive self-talk repetition this morning, and for a small period of time it did help. I did feel a little stronger. I did have a bit more belief in the possibility of success. It didn’t last long – but today is just day one! Here is what I came up with.
- I am enough.
- I will be okay.
- This too shall pass.
- Surf the urge.
- Emotions won’t kill me.
- The answer is in recovery.
- I am the recovery key.
- I can do this.
- Failure isn’t a feeling, and feelings aren’t facts.
- No thank you.
And of course the old faithful… Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.
I am going to try using these affirmations as a daily mantra, repeating them incessantly until imprinted on my heart and soul. Starting with number one – I am enough.
I am enough.
I. Am. Enough.
So are you. We are all enough.
Got a favourite affirmation? Please share in the comments below! I need all the help and inspiration I can get 🙂